Please don't give up, please be strong.

They said, "How can you expect a man to be brave when he meets with nothing in life but misfortune?"


Well, maybe you're just being misfortunate only for that moment. Good things take time. We've got to be patient. And little by little, we WILL go far and we WILL get it. If we don't get yet, means The Almighty will give you in akhirat nanti. Jangan salah sangka pada Dia. Jangan lah sampai terdetik hati untuk berhentikan sendiri tugasan kita di dunia ni. Siapa kita untuk memutuskan nyawa sendiri? Jangan ambil tugas tuhan. Dia tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita. Mungkin sekarang ditimpa musibah, kesedihan. Dan mungkin esok lusa pula kita di'timpa' kegembiraan dan peroleh kekuatan? Kuatkan semangat untuk hidup. Kuatkan lah semangat untuk teruskan perjuangan, capai lah cita-cita dengan penuh sabar dan berani. 


Aku sendiri kadang-kadang rasa nak mengalah. Tapi ibu & abah aku kata, perlu ke kita mengalah kalau kita sendiri belum usaha secukupnya lagi? Perlu ke kita mengalah kalau kita masih ada daya dan tenaga walau sedikit pun untuk terus cuba? Perlu ke kita mengalah kalau kita masih ada Tuhan kita yang akan selalu tolong kita? Salah Dia ke kalau kita tak berjaya? Salah Dia ke kalau kita tak dapat sesuatu yang kita nak? Cermin diri sendiri. Muhasabah diri sendiri. Apa yang salah pada kita. Manusia memang ada kekurangan. Tapi jangan biarkan kelemahan tu menguasai diri dan membuatkan kita bertambah lemah. 


Allah tak akan bagi ujian pada kita kalau kita tak mampu menghadapinya. Cara-cara Allah untuk menunjukkan kasih sayangNya pada kita, adalah dengan cara memberi ujian pada kita. Dia tahu yang kita mampu untuk menghadapinya. Bersyukur lah sebab Allah masih ingatkan kita. Itu tandanya Dia nak kita lebih dekatkan diri pada Dia. Pada waktu senang ataupun SUSAH.

So kawan-kawan, please be brave and strong.

Day by day, the pain in your heart will goes away and you'll feel relieve.

And  you realize. You'll say "Everything's gonna be fine and I WILL be okay."

P/s: Doa, Usaha, Tawakkal. Tu yang penting.




Yes, tetiba over deep feeling. Well that's how I feel now. I felt sympathy for a friends of mine. He's like a lonely guy and seems he don't want to share his problem with me or anyone, maybe. And he makes me exteremely worry. Hmm, I will always be there for you ;/ Please don't be like this...

Don't get us wrong, man.

The things that some men won't understand is even though a woman forgive someone because of their wrongdoing, usually a woman will remember that as a lesson. And not holding a GRUDGE. Don't get us wrong.

Goodbye SPM 2011, means hello to the new world

Once the examination has ended at 3:30pm, Wednesday, 30 November 2011, we all (no, some of us)  screamed out loud --- feeling sooo much relieved. Pheww. Yes, I admit. I screamed too. But not too loud. Teehee. 

 Biology was the last paper. Okay, i managed to do that paper tapi ada jugak buat jawapan yang  tak berkualiti. Ergh. Tibe-tibe boleh lupe 'funtionc of kidneys'. Duhh, bende senang tu. Okay, hantam. Zrettt. hilang 3 markah. And and paper 3, so so la. All we got to do now is tawakkal. Keputusan tu kita serah je pada Dia. 'Cause we can't control that thing. The thing we can control is our efforts.. And He will give us a gift equal to our effort lah. But when we didn't get what we want, it's not that Allah is hating you. It's just that Allah wants to show us that we have to work harder, be grateful and appreciate for what we have. 


Dear school uniform. I've had been used you for 11 years long. You were the one that always with me in school. When you get dirty, I'll be mad and tried to remove that dirty from you. I used all kinds of detergents and soap just to make you clean as much as possible. Dettol, T.O.P, Fab, Boom, Softlan. <---- I sacrificed my mom's money for you. I'll be missing you. I'll keep you in my closet 'til my last breath. (Wahhhh gituu, overnye).


Dear exercise books. Especially Biology, Physic and and Chemistry. For sure, I'll be missing all of you too. You were all have made me feel in love to be a doctor. Chemistry, eventhough I might get heartache and headache just because to understand you, I still love you. Still remember the ECS. Still remember where's the negative terminal and positive located in Chemical cell and Voltaic cell. I realised that you're important. Biology, I'll be meeting you soon. Physic, I've learned the basic of elecricity, forces and motion. I love electromagnetism. And yes, sill remember the Lenz's Law.


K
Na
Mg
Al
Zn
Fe
Sn
Pb
H
Cu
Ag


*seeee, I still remember the ECS.


And most of all, to my dearest teachers.
Cikgu Rozita, our class teacher. Terima kasih cikgu, sanggup mengajar kami yang degil sangat-sangat tambah dengan perangai nakal budak-budak laki kelas kami. Memang menyusahkan cikgu kan. Cikgu ajar kami macam mana nak buat ayat gramatis. Ajar kami macam mana nak buat karangan panjang-panjang menjela. Huishh, memang susah bagi saya untuk mengarang lebih 600 patah perkataan.  Terima kasih cikgu! <3


Cikgu Azian, our beloved biology teacher. She's the best. She has taught us about real life and her interest in biology. She's the one who makes me really want to be a biologist. Cikgu, nanti saya datang rumah cikgu ye. Kita borak-borak pasal biology. Kenapalah cikgu tak ajar dekat sekolah kitorang awal-awal lagi, dari kitorang form 4. Mesti lagi best and bertambah senang faham kalau cikgu ajar dari awal. And now, she's pursuing her study in master, biology course.


And last but not least. SMK Puteri, Seremban. Girls school. I was not being super happy studying there. But yes, I still remember you. The place that teached me on how to be a nerd student. Hahaha. Still remember I played with my friends at the hockey turf. And we all get soaked up. 


SMK Puncak Alam. 3 years here since 2009-2011. My friends here has taught me --- how to be friendly with others. They taught me on how to adapt with this new environment. Girls and boys in one school. Soooo lepas ni, AKU MESTI RINDU KORANG SEMUA ;'(


Baju sekolah, buku-buku teks, buku-buku latihan, cikgu-cikgu, kawan-kawan, bangunan sekolah. Unforgetable.


So, I am the one of SPM 2011 leavers. Hello to the new world out there. Please be good to me.

Guy: Imma shed a tear and cry!

When he faced with really big problems, feeling really low or feel like he can't depend on anyone, he do break down. Times have changed dude ;) !!

REAL MEN do cry and are not ashamed.

Shed A Tear.


Here it comes
Can't you see
That we're tough guys and we have feelings.
Take my hand
Close your eyes
With you right here
Imma shed a tear and cry
Don't be afraid to cry cry
You can still be a manly guy guy
Just cry.
Don't be afraid to cry cry
Let it free fall from your eyes eyes


Wake up see a sunrise
Let it free fall from your eyes.
Start my day and I read a sonnet
Got got a soft cheek with a tear on it.
Step out and the skies are clear
I'm a man and I have no fear.
Take a step and I land in crap.
I let it out, no holding back.

Here it comes
Can't you see
That we're tough guys and we have feelings.
Take my hand
Close your eyes
With you right here
Imma shed a tear and cry
Don't be afraid to cry cry
You can still be a manly guy guy
Just cry.
Don't be afraid to cry cry
Let it free fall from your eyes eyes

Baby we can go out on a first date.
But you come and pick me up half an hour late.
Girl I'm not gonna lie, that you almost made me cry,
But I'm a masculine man ill be ok.
Yeah, your place, toy story 3
the greatest all time kid's movie.
But I forgot, Andy leaves Woody,
And now the tears are coming right back over me.

Here it comes
Can't you see
That we're tough guys and we have feelings.
Take my hand
Close your eyes
With you right here
Imma shed a tear and cry
Don't be afraid to cry cry
You can still be a manly guy guy
Just cry.
Don't be afraid to cry cry
Let it free fall from your eyes eyes

When I was a little girl, my dad used to tell my brother, boys don't cry. But when women cry, no one says nothing. There felt more sorry for. But now, when I grow older. Man who are crying ----  it's nothing wrong with it.

I thought it wouldn't be easy to see a guy cry for change and any girl would be lucky to have him. It's not easy to find and see a guy cry just because of one particular thing. Kannn? Betul tak? Tapi takde lah pulak saya cakap laki yang menangis sampai teresak-esak. Apekehalnye pulak tu -____-  <----- bahasa apa aku pakai tu. If a guy cry I think it's sweet♥ cuz they can show how they feel. Awwww x) <--- arghh sudah sudah. So let's cry! Hahahaha.

Take note:
Girls like it when guys are tough can take charge when needed to, but we also like it when you can show some true emotions ;)

Nak jadi doktor psycho boleh?

Sometimes I'm scared of everything. Scared of what i saw. And currently now, I'm scared of how many A's I will get for my third major exam. Scared that I may not be able to adapt myself to any new environment. Scared of falling in love again. Scared that I'll be losing my bestfriends. Scared that I'll be losing my parents. Scared that I'll be turn into a bad person. Most of all, scared of what is happening in this world. Killing people everywhere. It made me feels more interested to be a psychiatrist or Dr. psychology - to cure them til they not being insane and suferring anymore. Though they're cannot be cured. I just feel like I want to try to change the lives of people with mental disoder for the better. We can't simply leave them alone. Because they had a mental problem. Some suggested that those people must heal their own souls through philosophy. So, psychology is extremely important in order to help them. 


Tapi kadang-kadang aku terfikir nak jadi biologist. (eh jangan mengarut boleh takkk). Tapi .... Tengok result, susah nak jadi ahli biologi. Apa-apa pun, 

Hello to the people who have mental disoder :)
InsyaAllah, I'll help you all to live a happy life without disturbance. With proper treatment and support, many people with mental ilness (like schizophrenia) are able to reduce the symptoms, live and work independently, and build a good relationships. No worries. I'll try to help you as much as I could.